It’s been nearly five months since the passing of model, actress and mother Kim Porter, and it has been hard to shake that the beautiful woman is no longer with us on earth.

No one is taking it harder than her former beau Diddy, who recently took to his Instagram to share his feelings about the mother of four.

For more than a decade, Kim and Diddy were in a relationship. They have three children, Christian, 20, and twin girls, Jessie James and D’Lila Star, 12. Kim also had a son, Quincy, 27, with R&B singer Al. B. Sure, who Diddy also considers his son.

On November 15, 2018, exactly a month before her birthday, Porter was found unresponsive at her Toluca Lake home in California. According to The Blast, Kim passed away from a severe case of lobar pneumonia.

On November 12, a doctor visited Kim’s home after experiencing flu-like symptoms. Porter said she was feeling “nasal congestion," “sweats,” mild cough, body aches and a sore throat. She had a fever of 102 degrees and also noted a “mild streak of blood with phlegm” while coughing that day.

Her sudden death was a shock to the ones who loved her, especially Diddy.

“We were more than best friends, we were more than soulmates. And I miss you so much. Super Black Love,” he said on a previous post after her death.

May she continue to rest in peace and the family continue to heal from their loss.