Lauren London has understandably lived a pretty private life since her husband Nipsey Hussle was killed in 2019. The famed rapper’s death admittedly still weighs “really heavy” on her, especially since London still lives in L.A.

It’s a sentiment London recently broke down on the Angie Martinez IRL Podcast. The 37-year-old entrepreneur said “it’s not easy” when asked about her later partner’s face being on murals all over the City of Angels.

"I want to move all the time, I just know it's not the right time for my family," she said. "I love L.A. It's tattooed on me. To the death of me, I love L.A., but it's too heavy for me right now." London also added she’d move to the desert if she could get away from it all.

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Additionally, London noted that she’s not leaving the West Coast, at least not for now. “I’m staying put right now, and then I just don’t think it’s like a good time for the rest of our family that loves us and wants to make sure they have a close eye on us.”

Also during the interview, Lauren London explained how Diddy gave her the strength to speak at Hussle’s Funeral.

“I just felt like it was surreal,” London said regarding her plans to wear sweats to the ceremony. “I can honestly say God was carrying me through that, cause there was no way. I didn’t even want to get dressed. I was gonna wear sweats.”

She continued: “Somebody pulled me aside. Puff. Puff pulled me aside and was like, ‘Look, bud. You have showed everybody what it looks like to hold a man down and to love him. Now show them what it looks like when it all crumbles. That’s your responsibility.’”

During the almost 50-minute interview segment, London also spoke about motherhood, other elements of her life, and more. Watch the full thing below.