The untimely death of Mobb Deep rap idol Prodigy was one of the most unsettling losses hip-hop has taken yet, as his fans and hip-hop counterparts mourned the fall of one of Queens, New York's finest.

Perhaps more unsettling, however, might be one of P’s last interviews where he discusses harrowing details about his struggle with sickle cell anemia, which ultimately led to his demise, and possibly foreshadowing his own death.

The interview takes place on VICELAND’s The Therapist with Dr. Siri Sat Nam Singh, where Prodigy sits down to talk about topics like religion, his struggle with the fatal disease and the eeriest of his experiences seeing a black shadow walk across his room.

P begins by explaining that he was diagnosed with hemoglobin SS disease, the most common sickle cell disease form, at only 3 months old. The name of the hereditary disease is derived from the sickle shape that his blood cells take on when they don’t carry enough oxygen, causing them to interlock with one another and induce excruciating pain. The “Shook Ones” lyricist added that he believes the trauma from the disease also brought about a mental disorder.

“It made me not believe in God,” he said. “I didn’t believe in God. Just, having conversations with God, begging God to make the pain go away and the pain wouldn’t go away — so, I’m like, ‘Who the hell am I talking to?’ God is not responding, so I don’t believe in that.”

Elsewhere in the interview, P recalls a previous experience where he saw a black shadow walk across his room. Describing it as a “black Spiderman,” P said that he put his bed sheets over his head. But after not having dealt with any pain for six years, he woke up the next morning in such agonizing pain that he had to be carried to the hospital.

“I knew what happened automatically, I already knew what it was,” he said of the experience. “I already knew what that black shadow was.”

We’ll get the rest of the story from P’s The Therapist episode when it airs on Monday (July 17) at 10:30 p.m. on VICELAND. In the meantime, check out some of his interview’s most poignant moments in the clips below.