From entering the house mid-season to securing a connection, winners Nigel Jones and Christine Obanor appeared to be the “Perfect Match.” Still, after the show ended, there was trouble in paradise. 

While in Tulum, Mexico, for Netflix's season two of the hit dating reality show, Jones and Obanor walked away paired in harmony. 

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“Honestly, I didn't think that I would find something,” Obanor says, explaining why she decided to join the cast. “I’m ready for love,” she explained while saying she hoped to find a connection that made her feel “appreciated and 100% comfortable with myself.”

Days after the finale, the couple announced they had seen better days, while Jones blasted Obanor, saying she had committed an act he “could forgive, but not forget” that had led him to lose his trust in her.

While acknowledging she’s broken his heart, Obanor offers a public apology to Jones because those actions don’t “reflect who I am as a person.” 

In an interview with BET, Obanor sets the record straight on that moment of bad judgment, how her feelings have shaped for Jones since, and the emotional toll that comes with being on reality TV.

Bet.com: Beyond the surface and aside from outcomes, how did your seasons on “Too Hot to Handle” and “Perfect Match” differ? 

Christine Obanor: I was in my head a lot on “Perfect Match” compared to “Too Hot to Handle.”  I was getting all the love and hype, but then there are people who hate me, but you can't people please, and that's my lesson after everything.

Bet.com: Is there an intersection of your TV persona and the person you are in real life?

Christine Obanor: TV doesn't portray who I am. In real life, I have a small group of friends because I don't play about loyalty [and] I keep my circle small. I'm very sweet [and] very confident. Anybody within my circle, or anybody who knows me in real life, knows that this is just TV Christine. It is hard because you try to prove to the world that you are a good person and that this is not who you are.

Bet.com: At the end of the season, you and Nigel matched. How did he exemplify the qualities you're looking for and what was it like to win top honors together?

Christine Obanor: He's very mysterious and straightforward. He knows what he wants [and] he doesn't fake the funk. He's such a gentleman, and he matches my energy perfectly.  I was shocked we won. I didn't really think that I would get the full experience because I came in so late, but I feel like we connected automatically. 

Bet.com: After matching, you both hit a rough patch. He even told you he could “forgive, but not forget.” What happened?

Christine Obanor: I had a night where I did have too much to drink, and I kissed another guy. I admit that I messed up. I allowed my past insecurities and my past traumas to ruin our relationship. I broke his trust based on his past traumas.

Bet.com: What is needed to repair the relationship?

Christine Obanor: It's hard to prove yourself to somebody if y'all are long-distance. I want us to do couples therapy because I feel like that's the only thing that can help us. I do really care for Nigel, and I have a lot of love for him. I know I messed up, but I want him to understand it wasn't something that represents who I am. Deep down inside, he knows that, but I broke his trust.

Bet.com: How are you coping with the effects of your actions? 

Christine Obanor: I feel disgusted. The moment I had something real, I couldn't wrap my mind around somebody fully being about me because, my entire dating history, nobody's been all about me. I've always been the second option. It was never me as number one. I need therapy. I'm damaged, which caused Nigel to have extra damage on his plate. Hurt people, hurt people.

Bet.com: Are you open for a reconciliation?

Christine Obanor: The door is definitely open, but we need to do therapy. I don't feel like just starting it back up again, as if nothing happened, would fix any of our problems. 

I want us to be able to see eye to eye on things and move past the damage so that we can have a fresh start.

Bet.com: Time has passed since that last update. What’s the status of your relationship with Nigel today?

Christin Obanor: We are on talking terms. The situation that happened has been dragging, so I just don't want to be in a repeat cycle of giving my all where it’s held over my head. I don't want to be crucified for my mistakes because I admit that I made a mistake, and I know I made a mistake.

Bet.com: Are you interested in joining another dating reality show in the future?

Christine Obanor: Not right now. This outcome wasn't what I had anticipated. It was a lot rougher than I thought it would have been. So, for my own sake and mental health, I may take a little break from the dating aspect because my heart still goes for Nigel. If I still lean towards him, I wouldn't want to jump into something else.