Allison Holker, the widow of late “Ellen” DJ and occasional host Stephen ‘tWitch’ Boss, has an explanation for why she’s publishing a memoir about her late husband.

A little over two years after Boss died by suicide, Holker appeared on the latest cover of “People” and revealed that she’ll soon publish memoir, “The Far,” as a means to “help” others. But in the interview, Holker alleged that she’d discovered that Boss had a secret drug addiction, and along with the news of her memoir, the accusation offended some Boss fans, friends and family members. In her Instagram Story on Wednesday, January 8, per “People,” Holker clarified that her “intention” to write the book was to share her “own story,” her personal life with Boss and “help other people.”

“Just like you, I never really knew what happened, and even as I am trying to put the pieces together I will never really know,” she wrote.

“If you decide to read the book, hopefully you’ll see my intention is to celebrate the love and life I shared with Stephen and our three beautiful children, and also the more complex aspects of both of our lives,” Holker wrote, referring to her children Weslie Fowler, 16 (who Holker had from a previous relationship), Maddox, 8, and Zaia, 5. 

“I hope that by sharing our full story maybe I can help someone else who might see themselves or a loved one in Stephen. In sharing I hope maybe they catch some [of] the red flags that I missed before it’s too late,” she continued.

After explaining her involvement with mental health advocacy, Holker added that proceeds from the book will go to Move With Kindness, a “mental health focused foundation” she started in Boss’ honor.

“My hope is that we don’t need to lose another husband, brother, father or friend to suicide,” she concluded. “I believe that if Stephen were able to choose, he would choose to have his story told if it meant saving even one life. Much love to all those who supported our family these many years.”

Holker and Boss were wed for nine years, marrying in December 2013.